Today I woke up cold, sick and without an awesome Lemon Jelly song to start the day. I didn’t follow my own advice on starting the morning the right way, and much of the results I had for the rest of the day were a reflection of the bad morning. The only thing I was grateful for upon waking was that my illness hadn’t turned into strep throat but instead was just a light cold.
Today I had three 2-hour classes to teach and I really didn’t feel like it. I forgot how awesome it was to be making money again, how awesome it was to have a job as relaxed and easy going as teaching, and how awesome it was to be doing this in China.
The negativity of the other teachers around me didn’t help either. The 3 Americans I was teaching with that day were constantly saying comments like ‘I hate my life, Kill me so I don’t have to teach any more, I just want to go home’ ect. Even if you don’t agree with what the people around you are saying, its hard not to let it bring you down.
I did my best to remain enthusiastic and happy in each class for the sake of the kids, but at each break and after each class I felt pretty miserable. Forcing yourself to be on your feet all day and act energetic and happy when you have a cold and you just don’t feel like it can be pretty exhausting.
After class was over I tried to salvage the rest of the day… I went out to dinner to a cool Bruce Lee inspired Chinese fast-food place which was pretty fun. Then I finally put up the blog carnival I had been meaning to do for a few days on the site. But after doing those things it was getting towards 9:30 and I felt so completely drained that I just wanted to go to bed.
The highlight of my day was meeting one of the TA’s named Icy. She’s the first Chinese girl who I’ve seen who has a kickass personality. She seems totally free when every other Chinese girl I’ve met is stifled by countless rules, traditions and a need to keep face. Icy’s different though, she’s fun, outgoing, flirtatious, she understands playful banter and can dish it out, and she isn’t afraid to talk about sex, when other Chinese girls get embarrassed and shy if you mention something as basic as kissing. She has a look in her eyes that says she’s broken free from the typical Chinese oppression and a massive confidence backing up everything she does. Now I think I heard she has a husband or a long term boyfriend or something, but she’s going to be an awesome friend to have and she gives me hope that women like this do exist in China.
Anyway there’s not much else to say about today. It really wasn’t a day worth writing about. I got caught up in the daily grind and forgot all about inspired living. I’ll have to ensure tomorrow is better.